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So I created a new lj. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ___hotfuss. Be nice & add me, and I will add everyone back eventually. kthanks<3</span>
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WHAT THE FUCK.
You know what, i am so fucking pissed off. I am so sick of this god damn bullshit that i have to put with so often, from bobby. He is the biggest fucking asshole i've ever met, and i wish i never met him. I wish i never liked him, and i especially hate the fact that i went out with him.
After him breaking up with ME in january i still have to deal with his shit all the time, beause he decided before that it was a mistake to break up with me, and wanted me back and i said fuck off. It's clear to me that he has some issues, and when i said to move on, he said " what if i dont want to? "
what the fuck is that shit? umm yeah. I never did anything to him, except lie when i said I "loved" him, because you think you feel one way at first and then you discover that you dont.
And to be honest i thought more about ryan then fucking bobby when we were going out. I'm tired of him fucking lying to people saying that i said shit about them, when i didnt and im tired of him trying to ruin everything for me, just because he's fucking miserable. And now that he knows that ryan and i are talking again[at least we were a couple days ago, who knows whats up now.] and that i like him , im sure he will try and ruin that too.
So thank you for ruining my life. I hope you get hit by a fucking car and i hope you are miserable for the rest of your pathetic life.
goodnight.
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Last night was pretty pimp. I took forever to get ready cause im slow, but after that I chilled at seans house with lupi, brandon, devan, and brittney. Got bored so we all went to Blockbuster, didnt even get a movie. Then came back, left sean and the rest of us went to tacooo bellll. Watched a movie, chilled blah blah blah. I was suppose to hang out with Rebecca and see the notebook, but that didnt happen =/. Besides that, i want to hang out with a certain person. ;]
Yesterday, these people with all the horny talk, ohmygoodness,
making stuff worse. hahhhhha. Oh shit, work tonight..motha fuckaaaa, this sucks. They seem to keep adding 2 more hours every week to my schedule wtfwtfwtf. Hopefully Dave will be working, PJ's a dick.
I'm eating icecreamforbreakfast.
sundaecrunchbaranditsgood.
my eating and sleeping habits got screwed with.
I think im losing my tanness
beachtimeithink.
<3
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I'm so impatient, it drives me nuts. Okay people are putting shit into my head and confusing me, but whatever .. iknowwhatIfuckingWANT. I'm trying to clean my room before i go out and its not happening, because im lazy. I guess Sean might be taking me, brittney + rebecca and whoever else to the rocket summer concert, wow this is..interesting. I might see the notebook tonight, but i hate those kinda movies. I can't wait to go shopping with Geoff and the Gibster ;].
why hello there, how are you?
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I watched FSTV or FSUTV, whatever its called and it was all about animals rights. Well, it was the saddest thing I've ever watched in my entire life. A college student was secretly video taping the experiments and conditions of the animals in the research lab & hundreds of primates were kept in small cages suffering from depression and other mental illnesses. Some of the primates were tied down and had their private parts shocked, and they were screaming. An inspector went into one of the research labs at UCLA and noted over 50 violations, yet nothing was done to improve the conditions of the animals. Animals such as dogs, cats, pigs, monkeys, birds are also used for medical, as well as cosmetic testing. Doctors and Researchers claimed that most of the tests performed on animals in research labs do not help humans, but the more research they do the more money they get for better equitment, therefore the continue to do it each day.
Anyways I was disgusted by the shit i saw.
Well anyways, my job blows. Yesterday i almost quit because the waitresses boss me around and everyone takes advantage of me. I have to work tonight and if they piss me off, I'm just going to walk out. Haha, i saw GIB and we talked then he laughed at me. Blahhhhhhhhh. Okay bye. Comment<3
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Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
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| Subject: | YEAH. |
| Time: | 4:15 pm. |
| Mood: |  mellow. | | Music: | Modest Mouse- Perfect Disguise. |
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ACCESS DENIED//FRIENDS-ONLY
Comment& then add me
- drama queens
- over achievers
- whiggers
- Ohh& boring people
are not welcome =]
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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Yeah, today was pretty badass and fun. After school jesse took us to burger king, then we went to his house to change and then to the beach.
All I know is..it was a lot of tanning, walking, ass spankin',wrestling, and board-watching going on in our grouppp. I got tackled and beat up by Jake, hahh. It was jake, jesse, me, jen, mike, kevin and then matt and his friend all together hanging out. I was the daring one who went swimming in the water.
these two boys followed jen and i and wouldn't stop looking at us. it was hilarious. we looked like surfer chicks. hahhh.
Friday beach again, maybe? Muhh girls are sleeping over too. if you want to hang with us friday night let me know.
I'm going to finish my homework and watch the Munsters.
Damn, Dream Theater is so fucking awesome.
oh. HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY. its my favorite holiday. :0)
mm..im in that chilled out mood. 311 is the best.
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Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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Don't you hate how life throws us these stupid unexpected curves? Sometimes we learn to swerve and miss them, and other times we crash right into them.
I'm thinking way too much about so many things.
Yeah, this morning was horrible. i mean HORRIBLE. everything was going wrong the moment i walked out the door of my house.
Finally it got a little better towards the end of the day.
Jake is so funny. he makes me smile. Without him in fourth period..i would probably go crazy. Yeah..apparently in Biology we are making babies on Thursday..and i just so happened to be put with Geoff[sp?]hahh, oh man.
If tomorrow is nice i think im hitting up the beach with jesse, jen, maybe spencer and whoever else. i hope its nice.
I want to work on this tannnnnn.
Surveyy..eee.
( Read more... )
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To be honest. i have little interest when it comes to school, grades, or doing well in school just in general. Although it would be nice to be like some of these people who earn all A's and manage to be on sports teams and everything.. i cant be like that. and really..i dont want to be like that.
I'd rather focus on things like art, music, and writing.. and I dont find school to be the least bit interesting. I can't sit in a classroom for over an hour working out of a book and doing worksheets like half of these teachers make me do. I find it to be pointless. They shouldn't even be payed for something like that.
Also, i have little sympathy for the people and crap thats going on in our world because people do little to help stop things or make changes. .We will create our own destruction. its only a matter of time. that might sound a little crazy and cold but its the truth.
Yeah. Anyways, I hope everyone had a good day. I know i did.
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What could be better then just sitting down and watching
The Munsters?
sadjkhdsfjdsfh im anxious to see the ZOMBIE movie that comes out soon. haha, it would be fun to make a recreation of the blair witch project.
i..cant...wait...until..next weekend.
im such a morbid child. who cares though.
Everyone have a fun day? i know i did. :0)
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Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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I've felt like such a whigger all day
I think its funny
Yeah so that party last night..
crazyyyyy
fucking stupid guy wouldnt leave me alone
he kept touching me and shiiit
and wouldnt stop LOOKING at me. wtf.
and there was so much "drama" there. helllla.
oh man.
Tyrone, Ashley and a couple other people showed up too.
hahah.
my mom is taking me on a
shopping spree at the mall
i neeeed a new bikini and some mini skiiiiiiiirts.
I <3 little summer clothes. hah.
I havent gone to the beach yet, and i really want
to GO.
Summmmmmmmmmer is going to
be fun, fun, FUNNNNN. i cant wait.
tomorrow i'm hoping to go to the beach
i want to see how dark i can get. hah.
:)
19th- Dawn of the Dead will be out in theaters..ahh.
anyone want to see it with me? puhhhlease.
Sean is talking to me finally. I think its amazing.
I'm talking to mike now.
im out.
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Shit, we are plotting something. It's going to be funny as fuck if it happens. We are brilliant. But hopefully we wont get arrested or anything. heh.
I hope it works. Big Read and Lana are here. they fucking rawk. Going to a party later. fuck you.
im out.
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Gemini
May. 20 - June. 20
This month is a good time to try to make a dream come true. Things can happen now that wouldn't normally be so easy. Something big is just within reach.
some people are such idiots. I'm going to tan. Goodbye.
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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
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I was suppose to go with Jesse after school but i forgot to ask my mom and didnt have any money. anyways..
stupid people piss me off.
Tonight 7:30, concert. Then after that..I think I'll be home around 9 the latest. I'm going to see if Big Read and Lana want to sleepover. Now I'm waiting for Jesseeeeee, so i can find out if he is picking me up and maybe jen.
i want to have fun tonight.
tomorrow i cut my hair. Friday..going underwear shopping in st. augustine because thats always fun. Then to a party.
everyone go tonight. 7:30- auditorium..or I'll fux you up.
wanna do something this weekend?
<3
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Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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[+] If you go to the band concert tomorrow.
[-] NRT test thing today..Boring.
[-] Today was BORING.
[+] He knows exactly what I'm thinking everytime I look at
him and laugh my ass off. ahah.
[+] Jake held my purse for me today..not many guys will do
that. hah, aww.
[-] I was very tired.
[+] Flogging Molly concert. [Irish punk band, what now?]
[+] Got to brush JT's hair on the bus.
[-] Midterms in math and biology tomorrow, gah.
[+] We are watching a movie in murphy's class tomorrow.
[+] I want to see the movie Dawn of the Dead
zombies RAWK..
and i really want to see the irish rovers damn it.
<3
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Society is messed up, seriously. I've encountered some of the dumbest people I've ever seen in my life this week. crazyyy.
I want to do something right now. ohh and im ready for some weekend fun.
( Read more... )
It's interesting when you discover how someone really is.
Actually, I'm a little disappointed..
Oh yeah, i want to make a zombie movie. who wants to be in it?
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This weekend..or next...SLUMBER PARTY. hah..and jake wants to sleep over my house this weekend..ahahah. I'm excited about
going to state..and our trip..and everything. It's fun to compete for things and such.
I wish certain people would stop thinking that they are funny when they really aren't..at all. hah.
things might go downhill from here
Thursday everyone needs to go to the school at night and see the band, because we are playing..i am in it..and of course you want to see me..and support the band eh? yes. so go.
My sister was folding the clothes and said i have sex underwear, haha um.
Yeah. Ever wonder who the people are that think about you, miss you, would do anything for you, hate you, secretly love you, pretend to be your friend..etc..etc..?
fhklfj klfghj.
My neck still really hurts. heh.
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omg, I'm in a lot of pain and I want to scream.
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Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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Satiate my mind and calm my nerves to look and find words that aren’t enough and never show a single piece of my mind.
<3
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
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I absolutely love my life..
Hmm..and I have a job. :-) I HAVE EVERYTHING, hmm.
Well..except for a boyfriend..but all in due time.
thank you and goodnight. <3
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weird.
apathetic.
thirsty.
relaxed.
nostalgic.
content.
calm.
devious.
crazy.
hungry.
anxious.
drained.
determined.
cheerful.